Beautiful Girl

Having a little princess in your life is such a gift. I never knew how much joy this princess would bring to our lives. She wakes early and gently comes to our bedside and caresses my face. Good Morning Mom! She then asks, Can we curl my hair today and maybe can we go shopping? While curling her hair she talks about all the wonderful shopping trips she wants to go on when she is bigger. Strange thing is we rarely ever go shopping. So how does she know to love shopping. The boys never ask to go shopping, unless its to the local sportsman store to look at bikes or sports gear. I guess it's a girl thing. Thank the Lord for this little girl in our lives.

HELD

This song by Natalie Grant has such powerful lyrics. I hope they speak to you as they have me during this difficult time.

Two months is too little.They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

Chorus:This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness.We want to taste it, let the hatred NUMB our sorrow.
The wise hand opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

Bridge:If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know, that the promise was when everything fell,
we'd be held

Missing Sam

Yesterday was one of the hardest days. When I woke up in the morning I never thought that I'd be saying goodbye to one of the most wonderful, completely loyal, loving sweethearts in my life. My Sammy.

Sammy joined our family in 1995. We went on a vacation to visit my parents and next door to them in the backyard was this hairy, unkempt, neglected, urine-smelling energetic, loving springer spaniel named Sam. I'd go over and visit and play with Sam in his small, dirty kennel surrounded by cyclone fencing. My heart broke for this 10 month old who so desired to be with people, but the family he was with wanted no part of him. They fed him and threw out more hay to absorb the urine in his kennel, but they weren't interested in making him a part of their family. They didn't even want to pet him and would shriek and run inside when he approached.

Happy 40th Birthday

We just celebrated my 40th birthday. I'm still finding it hard to believe I'm already 40. I remember when my parents were 40 and I thought that was SO old. But when they were 40 I was heading off to college. Maybe this feeling of youth that I have is a result of having young children at home. I think they keep me feeling young at heart.

This year I decided to do more than have quiet time running around a local lake or on a trail. I wanted a PARTY! So my husband, mom, some precious friends, and I planned a get-together I will always remember. We were blessed with sunshine and an abundance of friends. Someone told me they counted around 90 some people, 2/3 of which were probably kids. We had badmintion, bocce ball, horse shoes, a kick ball tournament, tetherball, soccer, and croquet. It was so much fun, but like life time went by much to quickly. Everytime someone came up to me, I said, "Don't tell me it's time for you to leave!" I love having a houseful of friends and family! Thank you to all who came and all who contributed to this special day.

Apparently my sentiment to friends is hereditary. The day after the party I asked our youngest if she had a good time. Her reply was, "NO! I didn't have fun at all!" She played all day long and everytime I saw her she was carrying dolls around with her friends or playing some sort of game. So I was completely unsure why she had such a miserable time. So I asked, "What do you mean you didn't have any fun? I saw you playing all day." She quickly responded, "It was NO fun because I wanted my friends to stay 100 days." I guess she was feeling the same let down I felt when the party was over.

I was just reminded how I need to make a concerted effort to have friends and family over for the backyard bbq's that are so important in relationship building and maintenance. Hopefully this summer will be filled with bbq's and games on the lawn.

Do You Hear A Killdeer?

There's a very loud bird chirping sound around our home this time of year. We've heard it in the past, but this year we actually are learning about these little loud birds known as Killdeer. They are cute little things with a black and white stripe around their neck. They appear to have reddish eyes. Or maybe their eyes are just red when they see us. The unique thing about them is they lay their eggs on the ground, in the gravel, and the eggs look like rocks so they are basically totally camoflauged. When you get close to the nest the parent bird tries to distract you from the nest and will try to get you to follow it or will act like it's lame with a broken wing. Anything to get you away from the nest. It's really quite endearing. What a parent will do to keep a predator away from it's young.

I've thought a lot about these little birds this spring. We've seen a couple of the eggs hatch and we just notice 2 more eggs have been layed in the pathway to our garden. When you're here- step carefully! You never know what may lay beneath your feet.

Check out the photo. See if you can find the eggs.

Spring has Sprung!

We love the sunny days! Here are a few photos of some of the blooming features from our yard. There's many more now that I hope to get on soon.

Precious Moments

I love to capture moments like these. You realize how much your kids really love each other at times like this. Sweet five year old won't move because he doesn't want to disturb his sleeping baby sister. And baby sister is so comfortable with her big brother she just cuddles up to him and fall asleep. Love it!

A Birthday for a Princess

Our youngest decided for her birthday she wanted to have a pedicure party. She invited some of her friends and we had pedicure and manicure stations set up. Each little girl had a foot washing, nail color application and were also able to pick out some rhinestone appliques for their toes. I think they definitely felt like they received the royal treatment. The boys even tried to get in on a "MAN-icure."

In addition to the pedicures, we decorated eggs, did the Martha Stewart silk tie dyeing technique, and did an Easter egg hunt. It was a day filled with SO much fun!

Daughters of the King

During spring quarter at our co-op I taught a class called Princess: Daughter Of The King. I had a wonderful group of precious girls in the class. The theme of the class focused on the fact that God is the King and as his daughters we are Princesses. Knowing this, we should act like the Princesses we are.

We looked at the Bible for verses that told of our royalty. We read books like I'd Be Your Princess by Kathryn O'Brien, The Way Home Princess by Max Lucado, The Princess and the Pea, Princess A Glittering Guide For Young Ladies, His Little Princess by Sheri Rose Shepherd, and a princess book by Beth Moore.
We learned about Godly character, etiquette, and we learned some beading techniques. We made a chipboard scrapbook to chronicle our lessons. We discussed adornments and the girls each made a beaded necklace. One highlight of our class was a field trip to a local tea room. At our tea party the girls had a wonderful opportunity to practice the etiquette we learned in class, but mostly we had a wonderful time enjoying each other's company.

Pine Wood Derby

We recently went to our local pinewood derby to watch these creative cars race. There were so many amazing cars there!! Creativity Abounds! We didn't make a car, but had a very good time watching the others race.

Learning Fair- Ben Franklin & Soccer



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This year for our co-op's Learning Fair the boys each chose a topic that was of interest to them. Our middle son chose to learn about Benjamin Franklin and our oldest researched the history of soccer.

Did you know that daylight savings time was Ben's idea? How about libraries, hospitals, sanitation companies, fire departments, and oh so much more! How about that he was one of 17 children. Actually he was number 15. What if his parents said we already have 14 children!! No more. Boy what we would have missed out on. His inventions were amazing! We learned so much and I'm thankful our little precious came home one day after studying Benjamin Franklin at Co-op and said, "Mom did you know lightning and electricity... SAME THING! SAME THING!" That led us on our journey to learn more. Wonderful!

Our oldest followed up his last year's research, The History of Skateboarding, with the History of Soccer. Any guess what activities interest him? We learned a lot about soccer. Did you know it's estimated to have been around since Roman times. And that football and rugby are both spin-offs from the original game of soccer? How about the fact that soccer is the MOST popular sport in the World?? Cool! We learned about field positions, skills, and so much more.

The Historians

I think I end up learning more than I ever dreamt I'd know. I'm thankful for these opportunities to fill in the gaps where maybe I missed something the first time around.

So Tired!!

Have you ever been SO tired you could just collapse wherever you are and sleep? Our little princess works so hard every day that sometimes there's just not enough steam left to make it to bed. We found her asleep on the stairs like this twice. One time she was halfway up the stairs laying on "one" stair. If she would have rolled she would have gone down. So cute!

I Truly Couldn't Ask For More

Today was one of those days where I really saw the true character of one of my children. I was blessed!

The kids and I were driving down the road to our our oldest son's soccer game. Before we had left I had given the kids a little bite to eat in the car to hold them over until we got home. About a mile from the house our middle son began choking. I quickly pulled the car over and the oldest met me with the side door open giving me quick access to our middle boy. I could see big brother's eyes welling up with tears and his concern for his brother was evident.

In the following seconds and minutes I assessed our middle son. He was breathing, but very upset thinking something was stuck in his throat. While I was working with our middle son, the oldest walked about 20 feet from the car and began pacing. His palms were together and up at his face. He looked like he was praying.

Soon thereafter, our middle son had calmed down and felt like whatever was bothering him was gone. I told him he should go to his big brother and let him know everything was fine.

They both came back to the car relieved the episode was over. I looked at my oldest and asked what he was doing. He humbly said, "Praying."

It is said that our true character is revealed when we're in a challenging situation. He could have screamed or panicked. Instead he quickly and quietly took the situation to the God- The Great Physician and simply asked for help. And God heard his plea. AMAZING!!! and BEAUTIFUL!!!

Later when we were talking he shared that he couldn't even help it. He just had to pray. Isn't the prompting of the Spirit wonderful? And I thank God he listened.

Our oldest is taking a class at our co-op called "Prayer Warriors." I will continue to pray our children grow into amazing Warriors for the cause of Christ.

Super Boy to the Rescue!



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I know I've been slacking on posting. The days and months are flying by so quickly. I'm going to try to post a few photos from life this weekend.

To help me out, I've enlisted the help of "Super Boy!" He truly is AMAZING!! He's a distant cousin of Nacho Libre. (This is what happens when children see a true hero). He flies, he's quick and most of all he's very kind. With his help and the help of his trusted companions, I may steal away a couple minutes to update. Wish me Luck!!

A Very Merry Un-Birthday To You!

Can you imagine going through life, at least your childhood, without having a birthday party? I realize their are people who subscribe to a religious doctrine that prohibits celebrating one's birthday, but this wasn't the case.

It was brought to my attention that we have a family member who had never had a real birthday party. There was an attempt that she remembered, but it ended in a disaster. So to help her prepare to celebrate for her upcoming 64th birthday, we held a surprise party for her. She was totally unaware of our plans.

Her party was complete with streamers, balloons, a crown, a cake, MANY candles, and most of all lots of laughter, smiling and great family time.

I can only imagine the pain of not having someone remember YOU on YOUR special day. We each only have one special day that marks our birth. If you haven't celebrated YOU in awhile I think an Un-Birthday is a fabulous way to do so.

Happy Un-Birthday to You!

A Human Penny Bank

We had a little scare here the other night. Our precious middle child came downstairs with tears in his big brown eyes along with a sincere look of panic. He had just swallowed a penny. My first question was, "Why did you put money in your mouth? and then, Why would you swallow it?" He just shook his head. I think it all happened so fast, before he knew it, it was gone.

So I quickly called the on-call doctor, as it was past normal business hours. Our conversation went as follows:

Doctor: "Hello."

Me: "Is this a doctor?"

"Yes."

"Well, with whom am I speaking?"

"This is Doctor X."

"Hello Doctor X. My son just swallowed a penny. He seems to be fine, but is there anything I should know?"

"I don't have many young children swallow pennies."

I thought to myself, "Well, who cares, I have a kid who DID just swallow a penny."

He then replied, "Well, it should pass. Well, unless it gets lodged and creates an obstruction. Then he may need surgery."

Well, can I say I felt very reassured at this point. Nice! An obstruction! Just what a mom needs to hear.

He then told me to call my regular doctor the following day to let him know and see what he said.

Our doctor said it should pass in 3 days or so. I was supposed to check, but I didn't. I was actually supposed to take a stick and check the contents of the toilet. I'm probably grossing you out so I'll stop.

Well, it's been 3 days. He's doing great! Awesome!! Crisis diverted.

A friend did mention to me, "Your kids seem to do all of 'those' things that we hear some kids do." I agreed.

Living Life In Perspective

Recently we had a chance to get to know 5 amazing young men. They have all lost their parents to AIDS. They are orphans. They have unimaginable joy, kindness, and a zest for life that I rarely see. They awaken in the mornings eager for another day. Their smiles are contagious. They are blessed with gentleness and fill rooms with laughter.

They unknowingly gave me perspective. They showed me what is truly important in life. They showed me contentment. I haven't seen contentment in a LONG time! It looks wonderful!

We (as a culture) have been blessed materially. We have SO much stinkin' stuff! I felt ashamed as I was trying to find a place to put it all before they came. All the stuff just seems to complicate life. We have the stuff, but we don't seem to be filled with the joy. We're consumed with consuming. We don't have contentment although we say we want it. We have the stuff, but no time to enjoy it together. I could go on and on.









The kids we met have Jesus. They have each other. They have their love of music and dance. The use their gifts and they give them away to bless others. Seems so simple.

The lives of these children has been changed thanks to Childcare Worldwide, www.childcareworldwide.org, and the generous people who chose to sponsor them. There are millions of kids around the world waiting for a sponsor.

A friend shared that she recently received a letter from her sponsored child. The young girl wrote that she prays for her sponsor family every day. She is blessed by their giving, but her gift in return is much greater. Prayer.

So for some perspective... A few weeks ago I was thinking about scheduling a facial. There was a day when I got facials occaisionally, but they're very rare now. Well, as of now I haven't gotten around to it. The reason being... one facial, 2 hours of time, can support a child for 2 MONTHS. Hmmmm.... Now where would that money be better spent??

Summer Coming to a Close

What a great summer we have had! The many beautiful days of sunshine made for great gardening, lots of time playing outside and many trips to the lake.

Wakeboarding Camp

Making Boats

The kids had quite a few great outdoor adventures. Our oldest got to take wakeboarding lessons. He attended his first week long day camp. The kids had great fun in an outdoor pool. The process of getting that setup was a story in itself. What a nightmare for me! Our oldest found out how much he liked playing baseball. Prior to this summer he thought life revolved around the soccer ball, until he was introduced to the great American past time. We'll watch his career.

The boys also took 5 weeks of swimming lessons and got to compete in their first swim meet. That brought back many good memories for me. Yeah for my swimmer boys!

The garden has been wonderful! We have more tomatoes, zucchini, spaghetti squash and yellow summer squash than we know what to do with.

Painting Boats

Library CardOur middle son got his library card! Huge event! Then he had to get a wallet to put it in. So cute.

We dedicated our youngest this summer also. What an awesome event. Our pastor gave her Colossians 3:17 "And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."

Baby Dedication

In addition to doing activities around the homefront, we were able to attend an exhibition soccer game. It would have been more fun if R & C were with us. Sorry guys! We also made it to a professional baseball game too.

Now it's back to school and hitting the books. It's good to get the routine back, but I'm going to miss the summer...

Deer Report: Garden Discovery

The garden has been great this summer! We've had lots of peas, lettuce, beets, radishes, raspberries and more. I can't seem to harvest the food quick enough. I'm sad to say some things go to seed before we can eat or give them away.

The word among the animal kingdom spread that we had a bumper crop and couldn't keep up with it. The vegetables were going to waste and the animals weren't going to have it. I think the mice told the birds, who told the rabbits, who then blabbed to the deer that there was an abundance and the getting was good.

The cherry trees were the first to go. One morning I woke up and went out to the garden and there were no longer leaves on the cherry trees. It seemed that the birds, and possibly the coyotes, ate the cherries and then called in the deer to finish the job. It was serious!

We then had company over who wanted to see the garden and much to our surprise we were greeted with beet and strawberry stems. I guess the leafy greens were a big hit! A vegetarian feast!

I've always said I'd plant enough to keep everyone happy, but I wasn't expecting this. I guess netting is our next project...

On the project side: Yesterday we had limestone delivered to finish the pathways throughout the garden and then we'll spread the excess bark. The weeding is never finished, but it's keeps me quiet so I can learn some life lessons.

I've hired a young man to do some weeding for me. While we're out in the garden he tells me that when he gets to heaven he's going to ask God why He made weeds. I tell him that God talks to me while I'm in the garden and if he's really quiet God might just answer his question.

To be quiet... could that could possibly be one of the the reasons for weeds. Our weeds of life need to be dealt with and pulled out so the good can grow. And during the time of pulling the weeds, if we're quiet, we can learn so many other secrets of life.

On Being Somebody

I had a retirement dinner to attend the other day for someone I worked with in my pre-stay-at-home-mom life. It was an event at a very nice local restaurant so I took extra care in getting ready. I actually put the full make-up on and wore my hair down (not in the usual pony tail) and dressed in nice yet casual summer clothes. I felt like I was heading off for work.

I jumped in the green bug sans kids and felt a sense of excitement to see people from my former life. I had to go through my rolodex of names in my head from that era to refresh myself on who I may be running into. How soon we forget the familiar when we're focused on grocery lists, to-do's, and three children.

I pulled up to the restaurant and saw someone who worked in the same office as me. What was his name??? I wasn't going to get out of the car until I had it on the tip of my tongue. Oh yeah, now I remember...

So off I headed, he was surprised to see me so we spent a few minutes catching up. You know, "How are the kids? How's business?" talk.

I confidently walked into the restaurant and was greeted warmly. Former associates smiled and called me by my first and last name (At home I go by a shortened version of my first name). To hear my full name again sounded so professional and wonderful. I felt like, "I'm somebody and I was somebody important!" In a way I felt like a superstar (only in my head). Oh to be recognized, welcomed, embraced, and celebrated.

I had a great time in the short time I attended the celebration of a fabulous associate. I had to run off to attend a Family Fun BBQ for our oldest at his day camp.

I drove away with the odd feeling of sadness though.

It took me about a year to adjust to being a stay-at-home mom who didn't work outside the home. I used to be a SAHM who did work so I had a little break and received those positive reinforcements one gets by helping others and connecting with other adults .

I kept thinking, in no way do I want to go back to working. I love being at home with my kids focusing my time and energy on them and our home. But the celebration of the person I used to be sure felt good. To be a SOMEBODY and not just somebody's wife or somebody's mom. That kept my mind tossing for a couple of days.

I know God has called me to motherhood for greatness in the future or in future generations, but day-to-day, this is one TOUGH job. Lots of hard work with no recognition. Being a mom is a self-less job and I'm sure one that will cause me to build more character than I thought I needed. Funny sense of humor God has.

Well I ran across this poem tonight written by an Unknown Confederate Soldier. And of course it was perfect for how I am feeling.

I asked for strength that I might achieve;
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.

I asked for riches that I might be happy;
I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked for power that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I had asked for,
but everything that I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered;
I am, among all men, most richly blessed